Project projects projects… Well, it’s gonna end in approximately 7 more weeks!
I’m bored at work and I’m thinking lots now. Dang.
Stand on His word, His promises, and trust in Him. This is to you my friend.
learning to let go really does lighten a whole lot of burden on my mind. haha. it feels great. =)
Loyalty and Faithfulness
The story, of someone waiting on the person who picked him up by the station. How the person have spent his life with him, going through the years, playing with him, teaching him and pampering him with “full body massage”.
If you haven’t already guess, that story is that of Hachiko the dog. A little bit of his story. He wasa picked up at the train station by a professor. Everyday, this dog would walk with its owner to the train station every morning, and head home right after the owner have went into the train. In the evening, the dog would reappear right outside the train station at the precise time when his owner would walk out.
I went to the catch the movie with Yeesiong, Dawei, Matthaeus, Peishan and Jolie. The movie version was a little different from the real actual story but you could say that the point was being shown through it.
To be honest, I really did not want to catch the movie. I really thought that we were going to catch Tooth Fairy instead. But i was outnumbered by the rest. I had nothing to say and could admit i was a little little frustrated. I wasn’t really expecting much from the movie actually. I’ve previously known the story so i just had the idea that it would be like fitting images to the story i have in my mind, which i wouldn’t want to spend $6 on. Through the first 70-80mins of the show, i could frankly say that, the only thing on my mind was how my $6 was just gone this way, watching how a dog grows up with it’s owner…. But as it came to the ending, something just struck me, and I just felt God asking me one question. “To what extent, will you continue to wait for Me?” The dog, knowing it was about time he was going to pass away, made its last journey slowly to the train station and layed there for the whole night till dawn when he passed away(in the movie)… At that point, I felt God asking the question, and things started reeling in my mind. Things like, even if I’m so tired that I’ve to drag myself home, would i be able to continue waiting a little bit more? If by the time i reach my 70s, will i still be waiting? If i have to wait 10 years for something to happen, will i continue to wait? So many different questions started swirling around in this brain of mine. “If”s and “what if”s….. To what extent are you willing to wait? maybe not for this Person i call my God, but for any other soul around you that is precious to you…
Ponder upon this…
Letting Go and Laying it Down
For such a long time now, in my mind, I’ve been going on about so many things. Things such as why do i feel so alone, why do i feel like i’m condemned (even a little) no matter where i go, feel like people are out to make me feel not welcomed and so on.
But then one day something happened(obviously not going to mention what it is), and I got so freaking worked up over it. In my head I was like “Don’t i have enough in my mind to worry about, enough to frustrate about. And something like this have got to happened right there and then.” I took a lots of deep breath to try to calm myself down, walk around but still couldn’t get it out of my head. Then I took a time out and tried diverting the attention on my mind to something else, and that’s when i chanced upon a question which i have no pondered on for ages.
Why am I so affected by it?
This is the one question that so many people have asked when their friends are frustrated about something, but not when they themselves are going through something as they don’t have the time to slow down and stop to process what’s happening…
When i started really thinking about that question, i calmed down so much, and even had so much thoughts after it to be able to say I’ll forgive, let go, lay it all down.
Forgive and forget? I’ve never really believed in forgetting. Don’t tell me you’ll forget about someone betraying your trust when you are going to believe him with something again(not saying it happened for me, but as an example). Things, incidents, these can never be forgotten. The only difference comes from how we deal with the emotions running wild inside of us when the issue surfaces again. Are we able to calm down, think in a way such that the whole issue is just a misunderstaning, a way where people tend to fault others, or in a way where everyone else is the culprit and you alone are the victim. There are so many different ways to react to so many different situation. The only question left to answer is, are we bold and courageous enough to face all these, and say i forgive.
I have, i mean, i am trying, though there will be times where i fall again, but then again, we’re humans right? I’ve let it down, lay it before God to let Him deal with it in my life. I’m not perfect, but at the very least i can try to be forgiving, as for what others have done to me, i might also have done it to others…
The sunrise today is so different. It brings such a hope that I’ve never felt or experience before. This truly is the hope of Christmas.
Haven’t slept, watching hannah Montana in the morning at 7 am..
Wonder what I’m doing in school from time to time. The world is such an irritating place…
